knots

It's amazing to me how much your mind can effect you in every way. Physically, spiritually, or any other --ally way. I feel like the inside of my torso, from my stomach up to my collar bone is on fire. I'm terrified, excited, anxious, confused, joyful, and hopeful. It's just too many emotions to feel at one time over so many different things...each deserving some attention. I could explain right now...but...nah. I even feel guilty for having such ridiculously over-sized emotions! I'm not usually super dramatic...I don't think....but I can't help it (or maybe I could but I also feel like that would kill me inside...if I just held it all in.)
-sorry I'm not making much sense, and my writing is crappy!-

There's only one good thing that ties all of this together and helps me know I'll get through this and come out better than I am now...God. Typical answer I know but an honest to goodness, completely true cliche.
My life is feeling pretty crazy and I'm mostly confused...but in a strange and completely natural way, I understand. Because God is finally in charge of my life. He's always been there and has always been guiding me. I've always tried to give Him my life and have asked Him to make it His. Now, finally I feel like He he is taking it. My reaction is steps firm and sure. I know that because I feel so out of control. Because anything could happen. Because I don't have a clue, I am positive that He does.

The tale of the lost bit

A little bit of my heart broke off today.
I know just where I lost it...
but I think I'll let it stay.
The crease that turned to a gap
began a while back.
I felt the soft organ bend and twist
like the snapping of someones wrist
The brake came slow with pressure ever increasing
But then it was only a small piercing.
It throbbed
but the piece stayed lodged.
But today that fault finally cracked completely.
A few salt tears traced the line quick and sweetly.
The little bit fell
As I hugged him well,
"We'll see him soon," I whispered to the little bit
It nodded, but disappeared into his pocket.
"Pathetic," I muttered
"You said it," it shuddered.
But I let it go anyway...